What I've Lost To My Eating Disorder

the ability to see myself without any distortions
full health
self respect
relationships
privacy
love for myself
time
childhood
memories
opportunities
social interaction
social skills
hair
strength
endurance
desires
the will to keep moving
family
my voice and the ability to voice my opinions

basically, i lost my life.
and for what?
for pain, for "beauty", for myself, for a diet.
its not worth it. i was so alone until i found help.
if you need help, get it. NOW.
once you have listened to ana or mia or both, you've already begun to lose everything. you only keep losing more and more.