Thursday, September 24, 2009

Hillsong Inspires Me. This is the Song.

Time and time again, I run away from You.
I fall down over and over again.
Your love never fails me.
Your mercy lasts forever.

In my brokenness, I find You here.
In my weakness, I feel You here.
Only You are worthy of my praise.
Only You are worthy of my praise.

I see a day where Your freedom fills me up.
Running water that lasts me forever.
Your love never fails me.
Your mercy lasts forever.

In my brokenness, I find You here.
In my weakness, I feel You here.
Only You are worthy of my praise.
Only You are worthy of my praise.

May I only live for You.
You are all I need.
May my voice only sing for You.
You are all I need.
You died so that we may find freedom
You are all I need.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Hope is on your side.

Hey, I can see you there crying.
I can see you there lying
that there's something to feel
Hey, I can see you there laughing
though your soul feels like dying
and you think you're alone.
Hey, I know the emptiness floods in
I know that you hear it
and you think you're alone.
Oh but hey, you've got to get yourself through this.
Only you're the one to do it
and Hope is on your side.
Hope is on your side.
His arms are open wide.
He will carry you through the longest of nights.
Hope is on your side.
His arms are open wide.
He will carry you through the darkness of the night.
Hallelujah
Hey, you can run away from it,
tell all the world you're not of it,
but do you want to go and hide?
Hey, maybe take some time to think through it.
Run to the Water and lose it.
Your tears say that you're alive.
You're alive.
Thank God you're alive.
I thank God you're alive.
His arms are open wide.
He will carry you through the longest of nights.
Hope is your side.
His arms are open wide.
He will carry you through the darkness of nights.
And I thank Him, you're alive.
Hallelujah
Alive
Hallelujah
Alive
Hallelujah

Monday, September 14, 2009

I Knew This Would Come

Hey friends.
I have found myself in the midst of another relapse.
How can I be so selfish? How can I find myself here once again?
Its incredibly frustrating and incredibly terrifying that I knew from the beginning it would happen and I did nothing to stop it.
I didn't fight...at all. I let it consume me.
How sickening is that?

It is more important to get better now. More important to stand at the sidelines. As much as I hate to say it.
I need help once more.

Dear Recovery. You don't look so sweet to me anymore. But here I come charging at your ribbon again.
Maybe this will be the last time.