Healing Rain, Reign Over Us

these past few days, i have seriously been challenged. so much. i've been on "vacation", meaning i pretty much spend the night anywhere but my house. its a lot of fun. monday night, the mountains, last night, a friend's house in redlands. tonight, home...tomorrow night...who knows? its exciting.
but ive been challenged. and i've gotten a lot from God.
two songs. a dream. words. and a promise of security.
the dream was incredible, but confusing in so many levels at the same time. weird huh?
here it is:
i was in the mountains and i had a best guy friend...i was in love with him...and he was in love with me. he proposed to me in the middle of a forest and a week later, we got married. it wasnt an elaborate wedding, it was the simplest wedding i have ever seen. i was in jeans and a nice shirt, he was in business casual clothes. we were barefoot in the forest. i had a ribbon in my hair and thats about as fancy as it got. people just stood around to watch us. a pastor said a few words that i didnt entirely hear. and there was this glowing connection between my husband and me. i remember a big part of the dream was that i was really young. not younger than i am now. lets say like nineteen or twenty. i dont know how old he was...but im also not saying who it was because i know who it was and yeah i really do know how old but...dont ask. anyways. we were married and mostly everyone supported us except a few people. our whole family, on both sides were happy about it. but it didnt matter if anyone else didnt agree. it was like this is what we had to do. and yes, we were all happy and giddy "we just got married! yay! we're married and we have a life as one!" and all that jazz. but it was a different feeling. it was like, this is God's plan for us, so this is what we will do. done. i dont know, its a hard feeling to explain...then maybe a week after we were married, we went to this celebration thing. it was a huge party and while we were there, my husband (who shall still remain nameless) had to go in for surgery. we went to the celebration fully knowing this. i kissed him and told him he would be fine, and i would see him in a few hours. a few hours passed and he came out of the room completely fine. then we went back into the same room and an awards ceremony was taking place. the whole room was waiting for us, and clapped as we entered the room. then i woke up.
this is the most confusing dream. but the thing is, i was half awake during the entire thing. it wasnt like a random, im sleeping and a lot of things are combining randomly in my brain...i was mostly awake during all of it. and when i woke up, my hands were shimmering with gold dust. so i know it must mean something. i want to know what it means...if any of you, internet world, think you might have an idea...let me know because my brain wont leave it alone and its driving me nuts. :]]
so there, thats my dream. i would write out both of my songs right now, but i need to go get something to eat. maybe later.
oh! the title of this blog is the title of one of my new songs. healing rain, reign on us. my friend got that from God as i was playing on a piano in the mountains.